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So at work today, one of my colleagues said I was looked thin and wanted to know what I’d been doing. Yesterday I got a similar comment. Sure, flattery is always nice and compliments are always welcome, but this time I wasn’t just flattered or even pleased but suprised. Mainly by the fact that I’ve completely lost my perspective.

When you are working towards a larger, long term goal it is so easy to get caught up in the the day to day and harp on small mistakes. For instance today- I have on a pair of khaki pants and all morning all I could think about was how fat I thought I looked. The only thing that saved me from being totally unhappy with my look is a great pair of gold shoes I got on sale, but I digress. Basically, I’ve been thinking about this all morning, that I look fat, especially going outside and seeing all these “thin” people in their “tiny” outfits. I’ve been thinking about the times I didn’t go to the gym, and that extra cookie I ate on this day, the second helping on that day, etc.

But then I get a reality check from an unexpected source. One sincerely given compliment made me shake myself and step back a bit. Instead of thinking about all the things I’ve done wrong and didn’t do I should be congratulating myself on the progress I’ve made and all the positive things. Or, even better, maybe I should just stop thinking about it altogether!

I mean, every morning as I get dressed I pass by my full length mirror and inevitably I start to take things in with a critical eye. Does my thigh look bigger, does my back seem to have more fat, didn’t my butt look smaller a couple of weeks ago and on and on. Basically it is driving me crazy. I’m constantly checking myself and watching for lack of progress or setbacks. The thing is, I know that by expecting these things I will probably end up making them happen. So, starting today, I’m shutting off the INSANE girl part of my brain. Yes, this is easier said than done, but as a fairly well adjusted person (usually), I have confidence that I can quiet, if not completely silence that insecure, annoying, about to drive me crazy little voice in my head that is almost waiting for me to fail.

They always that “you” are your worst opponent. I guess I’m just finally deciding that my opponent is a bitch and it’s about time she shut up. posted by Flab to Fab

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