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So, first I have to whole-heartedly congratulate myself for making it to the gym this morning.  Typically I see Terri on Wednesdays, but tonight is my firm holiday party so I had to cancel for this week.  However, since Wednesdays are typically “definites” I felt that it was really important to get my butt out of bed this morning and still make it a definite on my own.  So I went to a 6:30am spin class, which of course, was really a 6:15am spin class,( stupid misprint!) but hey, 30 minutes is better than nothing.

The thing is, though, I really need to get a handle on the whole morning thing because I literally am so paranoid and have to psyche myself up so much about going that I have trouble sleeping.  Last night I woke up at 1:06am disoriented and all of a sudden completely awake because I had to go to my class.  Then I realized that I had about 5 more hours to go!  Maybe it will take a few more times but at this point I think I just don’t sleep too deeply because I don’t trust myself yet to actually make it happen.  Well, now it’s been two times so hopefully after a few more I’ll start to believe it.  Anyway, I am really proud that I went because I know I would have felt horrible about not going when I was at my party.  Now I can just enjoy myself and not feel any guilt.  You really have to love it when you actually have the foresight to suck it up in the moment for your future self.

So, on Monday I told Terri about my upcoming holiday party and we developed a plan of action.  I’m supposed to eat my dinner early, around 4:30 so that when I get to the party I can nibble on appetizers but as I won’t be too hungry I won’t overdo.  Sadly, I’m only just getting around to eating my lunch now, so I definitely won’t be hungry for dinner at 4:30pm.  What to do, what to do?  I think maybe I’ll eat half of my dinner then? I’m really not sure.  I need a new plan!

This is one of the reasons I love Terri, I can actually email her and ask her.  I mean it is something relatively small, but I know myself and if I can manage to get through tonight and feel like I am in control of my eating it will be one more small victory to keep me motivated and focused.  If things go badly, everything could crumble and at this point I’ve worked way too hard getting back on track to let that happen.  I think one of the most important parts of succeeding is being able to really know yourself and identify situations like this.  I refuse to let tonight be the impetus for my holiday downfall!  So, I’m now off to email Terri for Plan B.

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