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So I’m going to Mexico tomorrow on vacation.  Of course I’m really excited and can’t wait, but for some reason the whole thing just got me thinking about the last time I went on vacation in Mexico which was almost exactly a year ago.  Now, over the course of this past year, I’ve certainly had my ups and downs with eating and working out and maybe, (okay, definitely) more downs than I would have liked.  The thing is, if I had to pinpoint exactly one moment or one instant that influenced everything that came after it would have been the week after my vacation last year.  I remember prior to going I wrote on this blog how I really wanted to try and work out at least three times and keep my momentum going.  I also remember that I accomplished that goal and really ate pretty well, I mean, I didn’t even gain a pound on vacation.  Pat on the back for that.  What happened next, though, turned out to be the beginning of a significant drawdown.  When I got back I just stopped going to the gym and ate whatever I wanted and I was never quite sure why.  Sufffice it so say, that after a few weeks of that sort of behavior I blew up, entered into pure self-hatred mode and became miserable.  It was like mentally I just gave up and trying to get back to a good place literally took months and is something I’ve only finally come through rather recently.

So, fast forward a year and here I am again.  I feel like I’m not physically looking as good going into this vacation as I was for the last, but I think I have a better mental edge.   Usually I seem to sabotage myself right before a vacation.  I mean, we all know that anytime you have bikini wearing looming on the horizon you start planning weeks to months in advance and typically I do okay for a while, but then, every single time, I just suck the last week.  This time, though, I finally broke that pattern- I’ve worked out six out of the last seven days!  So going into this vacation while I’m not looking as good as last year, I feel good about finally being able to do somehting (not suck the last week) that I’ve never been able to do in my entire life!   

So then, back to this oh-so-pivotal moment-maybe I’m being melodramatic or something, but for some reason I see this vacation and the week after it as my chance at a do-over.  I’m convinced that if I can change this one week, I will be able to change everything that comes after it as well.  Last vacation, I worked out during thee vacation and then sucked when I got back.  Maybe this time I work out if I want to and if I don’t, then I won’t- I mean, seriously, I’m on vacation.  Then when I get  back I’ll be much more motivated to get right back to my routine. 

In all, I really don’t know exactly how I’m going to make it work, but I do know that I will do whatever it takes.  I just refuse to have another year stressing out about all this stuff and for whatever reason I feel like this is my big chance to make a change.  Maybe I’m just being crazy, I mean it is just one week, but it really is like deja vu except this time I get to rewrite the ending.

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