So it’s been awhile since I last wrote. It’s hard to keep up with blogging when there is so much other stuff you need to get done. But I do like being able to collect my thoughts and really think about my progress. I did get measured last week and it went ok, I guess. I lost 3 inches but I just don’t feel much of a difference. I guess no one is really happy with their results. I know I have to really focus on my eating and become bored with food so I don’t look forward to eating..lol.
I started boxing with Terri which I think I am really going to enjoy. It seems like it is going to be a challenging workout. But I hope not as challenging as those damn pushups! Yup, I still hate them! :-)
Terri kicked my butt! I had to do 75 pushups which by the last set I had no feeling in my arms or chest. I guess I deserved it :-). It felt good afterward though! “Now how good does cheese taste”….yup, I must say the cheese wasn’t worth it.
I had a great workout as always but I just felt like I had no energy last week. I was weaker than usual. Well that was my body telling me that I was getting sick and there was no way out of it..lol. I was in bed all weekend and still feeling pretty crappy. I had to cancel my sessions with Terri this week, which I am upset about but I know it wouldn’t benefit me at all. I can’t even walk up the steps and I am exhausted..lol. I am looking forward to feeling better and to get back into my routine next week!
I ate a slice of cheese today :-)~. I had to confess my sins…now I feel better! But I guess that wasn’t very smart to do before I have a training session with her…lol. I can feel the burn of the pushups now…..
I fell off the band wagon this weekend. And my punishment was an extra set of push ups. Sounds easy enough but really its torture. I was really doing good until a graduation party on Saturday. One piece of graduation cake and I was ready to eat everything. But I can’t get too crazy about it. One slip up and then I have to move on with it. Last night at Terri’s studio I felt better about the whole weekend binge and was ready again to move forward and to make a decision that I can stick with this and that I don’t need to eat everything to have a good time…lol. I am trying to fight the Italian in me. I have it engraved in me that wherever you go there has to be food food food!
I realized those munchos, although tasted yummy going down, were so not worth me busting my ass over.
So I am trying to realize that bread isn’t the enemy! Terri had told me to try and cut back on carbs for a little while such as potatoes, pasta, rice and I interpreted that as NO CARBS whatsoever!!! Result being, ready to pass out at her workout sessions. I have to stop going with the all or nothing approach and realize I am not going to lose 20 lbs by August. I am trying to be more conscious of the things that fuel my body to be more active and satisfied then obsessing over “WHAT AND WHEN CAN I EAT”.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mean I can sit down and stuff my face with bread :-)~. But if I want a sandwich instead of a salad then I shouldn’t obsess and be guilty that I ate two slices of wheat bread.
I am hoping by the end of my training that I will have a better relationship with food. I want to feel healthy and fuel my body for the rest of my life without obsessing over it.
The training with Terri is going great!!! Except for the fact that I have to STOP EATING!!! I do look forward to working out with her every week and now I am starting to believe that I can do things I never thought I could. We tried pull ups last night (the real ones), which I never would have tried on my own because lets face it everyone dreads them. They aren’t fun! Even though they were pathetic, I am determined by the end of my sessions to be able to do at least one..lol!