well, i went running this morning — even with a cold (see, i’m motivated ;0). I ran 3 1/2 miles — not very much, but at least I got my butt there, even WITH a cold. And I did the requisite 100 pushups, and some stretching, a long walk with the doggie. yesterday I ate way too much. I had nukitchen for the day, which always makes me overeat since breakfast is all carbs. The whole food thing has been a struggle — not eating meat at all, or dairy except for Ronnybrook yogurt, which comes from “grass fed” “pasture raised” cows. For the maybe one person who reads this besides Terri, I stopped eating poultry (I haven’t had mammal in 18 years) and dairy after the sheep kill on my Utah survival skills trip. I had eggs for the first time this morning (from “free roaming hens” that “are not confined to cages, but are allowed to roam freely and follow their natural instinct to scratch around in the litter and move about as they please.”) Eggs from litter eating hens sounds so appetizing, but I guess it beats the the alternative. I finally gave in since maybe I got a cold because of not getting enough nutrients. I don’t know. Anyway. Happy weekend.
It’s true that when Terri trains you, you change inside as much as outside. I’m starting to feel like I can be an athlete. This is such a crazy unfamiliar idea. I’m not an athlete, I’m a couch potato wannabe athlete. She pushes me to change my thinking, and my bad habits. Like I must eat more than I think I should. She says I look great — not fat and flabby the way I feel. When I didn’t want to come in last week after having a terrible night, she said I wasn’t acting like a champion. She was right and I felt it and the next day I got my mental crap together and got there and we talked about being strong and making your needs known and being prepared to walk away. I want to be a champion (am I a fraud??). She’s no therapist, at least not directly. She makes me work hard, she makes me evaluate my diet and nutritional needs, she makes sure I’m taking care of everything. I really am different now. I’m stronger inside, more motivated, more confident. And I sleep at night now (I never did without ambien — every night for almost four years.) I sleep every night. thanks Terri.
Today’s my last day of the week with Terri. I’m kind of bummed. yesterday at work (i didn’t work out) I was totally unproductive. I’m so much more productive the days I see her. My whole life has changed — i wake up at 6:30 (I am so not a morning person), I work hard (mostly) and I get stuff done. Today was my first “yoga” day with Terri because I ran with TNT yesterday. I wasn’t so into the yoga. I wasn’t sore or tired from running, so I totally could have done a harder work out. Especially since I’m seeing her less now, I don’t want a regular down day. Anyway. I still got in my 100 push-ups tonight (30+30+30+10)! I’m such a geek.
Which reminds me, what the hell happened to Project Runway last night??? Repeat!! I was totally annoyed.
I’ve been a total slacker about keeping up with the blog the last couple weeks. Well, I’m finally feeling a lettle less overwhelmed with everything on my plate, and more motivated to get back into work and working out and tackling all my commitments. Working out with Terri picked up this week — I was tired on Tuesday after the hard work out. That’s what I want. I finally got back to running with Team in Training this week too. I hadn’t gone in 3 weeks, but I ran 6 1/2 miles. yay. (My knee hurt the rest of the day — but it’s fine today. Don’t tell anyone.) I originally planned to run the Arizona half-marathon, but if I start going to practice regularly (2x/wk), I’ll start training for the marathon. it’s hard to believe I would ever think it was possible for me to do this. I’m coming to really understand that for me, my biggest challenge is not physical but mental. I guess that’s why there are sports psychologists. I feel like Terri is a psychologist of sorts. At least, I’ve been getting myself there for the last two weeks, even though I felt very crappy and unmotivated. She said I wasn’t acting like a champion. it’s true.