Dec 21st, 2007
Hello again
Well, here I am, trying to write it down again. Not feeling like going into everything that’s happened in the last few months, but I feel like it’s worth a try to start writing again.
Working out with Terri is basically my therapy. Today we did yoga, which I wasn’t entirely into doing this week, but there it is. I feel terrible about my weight, and it wasn’t really a calorie burning workout, but I guess there’s alway the possiblity of working out on my own. That’ll be the day. What’s stopping me? Is it that I’m lazy? or inhibited? Yes, I think that’s it. Very inhibited and anxious. Like shopping. My anxiety shoots through the roof. I’m never good at shopping. I spend money on clothes and shoes I end up never wearing.
Oh, I am so down on myself now. My parents are coming in this weekend. And I’m fat. And I have nothing to wear. Ugh!
I’ll go to yoga tomorrow and shopping after. Oh I can’t wait.
I’m going to go make up the pushups I “missed” at Terri’s.
xo