I think the difference between burnout and bored is with burnout, you lack the energy or desire to continue something. When you are bored, you lack the interest. Based on my definitions, I’m bored.
This morning I got up.. ate my eggs and started my workout. But I just couldn’t get into the workout. I totally didn’t want to be doing it. I found myself walking on the treadmill instead of bouncing like a bunny.. and the speed was set the same as always. I cut my lunges to one set.. and almost fell asleep during my reverse hyper leg extensions. I even skipped the Abs all together.. and I LIKE abs!
I’m not really lacking motivation.. I don’t think. I mean, I really didn’t mind waking up early to workout. But once I started the workout.. bam! It hit me.. this negative rebellious force.
Now don’t get me wrong. My body has made some amazing changes in the last few months. I have great defined shoulders and back, I’ve got six pack abs (well, maybe a soft small six pack) and my tricep swing is smaller and thicker. Now you would think the visual changes would be motivation enough. But I’ve actually caught myself thinking, “ok, you’re looking pretty good, why are you even working out?”. Of course I don’t let the thought linger, but for a split second it’s there.
Last week was pretty much wasted. My headache lasted almost 3 days and by the time it cleared, I was in “defeated” mode. I was annoyed that I’d missed some workouts and frustrated that I was lacking the motivation I needed to jump back in. But today is a new Monday!
Terri is right.. my body is beginning to show a little progress and it’s doing exactly what I want! I’m not complaining about the extra weight or added inches. It’s just a new way of thinking. For years I have used weight as my “slacker” guide. Last December I noticed I weighed 10 lbs more than the previous year. I immediately jumped into emergency action and the weight was gone by Feb 15th. But now… I know I’m going to be gaining weight, and I know it’s good.. but it’s still scary. I’m just about to cross the 120# line. I’m in better shape now than I’ve ever been in my life. But I feel like I’m jumping into a cold swimming pool. I just don’t know what the norm is. How do I know what a normal weight would be for me if I were all muscles? Perhaps I should stop weighing myself and start using my waist measurement as the slacker guide instead.
I’m also sure Terri’s right about the added inch to my butt. My husband even made a comment earlier in the week about how nice my butt looked when I was wearing a pair of warm up pants. I laughed it off at the time, but by golly.. I see a beginner bubble! :-)
This morning I woke up fresh and started with a clean slate. I ate a good breakfast and had a great workout! I feel energized, motivated and excited about my progress. Life is good!!
After a slow start this week, I think I may be back on track. I didn’t workout this morning because I needed to fix that squeaky Treadclimber first. So, I took half a day off and did a little shopping (for the treadclimber lubricant and groceries).
After I fixed the squeak, I did my Tuesday workout. It was a really good workout. I figure I can add the Ab work I missed yesterday to my last workout of the week. That one is always a little shorter than the rest and doesn’t have any Ab in it.
I almost messed up on my eating today. I forgot all about breakfast until I got to work. Fortunately, someone reminded me we have a food court on our campus. I ran over there and picked up a breakfast sandwich. I actually felt a little proud of myself :).
Lunch was a little late. It was after 2pm and I was just leaving the grocery store. I started to grab a bag of cookies and start snacking on my way home.. but then I remembered.. that’s a no-no. If I ate the cookies, I wouldn’t be hungry when I got home and wouldn’t eat lunch. So I grabbed a bottle of water and left the cookies alone.
Dinner was easy (since I have a kitchen full of groceries now).
This has been the worst week I’ve had since I started with Terri (of course, that’s only been 3 weeks.)
I had an early morning appointment on Monday, and although I considered doing my Monday workout on Sunday, I didn’t. Then Monday.. well, I just couldn’t get the motivation after work to do it. So, I figured I’d move my 4 day workout from Mon-Thur to Tue-Fri.
This morning I woke up to do my Monday workout.. I really didn’t want to get up. I must have spent 30 minutes arguing with myself. Eventually I won :-))) the Health-me won. I got up, scrambled a couple of eggs and started the workout.
Then… that darn Treadclimber! Sometimes it squeaks. I’m not sure what causes this, but one of my doggies is very sensitive to this sound. He has little mini seizures. It was a little worse this morning, but I tried to ignore him, thinking he’d go in the other side of the house and not hear it. Well, he disappeared and I continued to workout. Then, as I was about 50 minutes into the workout I decided I’d better check on him. I found him curled up in my bathroom walkin-closet. This by itself wasn’t too unusual, but my doggie #2, was sitting prim and proper at the doorway watching doggie #1. Now _that_ is unusual! Sooo.. I had to take some time and talk to the boys to figure out what was going on. Ten minutes later, I was able to coax doggie #1 into the back yard, but he insisted I stay near.
Anyway, I finished everything except the abs/crunches. I really hate that. I actually like the Abs best of all. I need call bowflex and ask them what causes the squeaking and what I can do to stop it.
Yesterdays meal’s were terrible. I skipped breakfast completely, ate some brownies, ate King Ranch casserole and 2 rolls for lunch, and leftover King Ranch for dinner.
I guess I need to go back to no sweets again. I’m just not ready to eat them responsibly yet.
Well, I walked the dogs and washed one load of clothes (I probably have about 5 more to do, but I’ll wait till tomorrow for that).
I never got much motivation to do much today. But I’ll try again tomorrow. I just finished eating dinner and I’m totally stuffed.
For Breakfast today, I had 2 scrambled eggs and 2 biscuits (with butter).
Lunch was leftovers from last nights dinner. Roasted Chicken, beans and rice. But instead of the tortilla’s, I ate biscuits left over from breakfast.. um.. I actually ate *3*! :-/
Dinner - I had another sandwich like I had Thursday night, Turkey and cheese on a croissant, I also had 1/3 of a stuffed baked potato and some steamed cauliflower.
Gee.. I feel so full I could burst! Must be all that bread I ate today. Guess I should probably watch that a little closer.
Monday is going to be a tough day for me. I have an appointment at 7am, which is going to totally mess up my current workout routine. I’m not sure if it would be better for me to workout tomorrow (Sunday) or try to do Monday’s workout in the evening. I really really really hate working out in the evenings, but there is no way I can get up at 3:30am to workout and still make my 7am appt. Notice I didn’t give “not working out” as an option :)
I’m bored. It’s a lazy Saturday afternoon and I find myself thinking of cakes and cookies and chocolate. I already broke the rules and ate an apple an hour ago. I’m not sure if I’m hungry or just bored.
I ate a good lunch, so I really shouldn’t be hungry. But I still find myself trying to figure out what I’m going to eat tonight. <sigh>
Guess I really should walk the dogs and wash some clothes… but.. gee, I can’t really think of a legitimate excuse not to. Hmmm.. ok, I’ll go walk the dogs. Perhaps I’ll feel more energetic after a little fresh air. I’ll check back in later and give you my daily food report.
I just started my second week. I had forgotten how grueling the workout is! Boy.. what a way to start the week.
I ate scrambled eggs for breakfast. Had a subway turkey sandwich for lunch. I’m not sure what’s for dinner yet.. but I’ve been staying away from deep fried foods, so I’m pretty sure it won’t be fried chicken :-(
Today is the end of my first week. I was doing good on the diet until today. I skipped breakfast this morning. I really had intended to eat, but time slipped away from me and before I knew it I was running late for Church. Other than that one time, I’ve managed to eat three meals a day every day.
I’m not too good about logging the food I eat. It’s a time consuming task. I wish I could just enter the information in a “journal” type application instead of a database.
I bought a bicycle yesterday and rode 5 miles. I was planning on riding more today, but it’s been raining (with lightning), so I decided it wouldn’t be the safest thing.
I baked muffins this afternoon and didn’t eat ANY! They sure did smell good.. But I held my ground and fought the temptation.
